I no longer know who and what I believe anymore.
Everyone lies, and there is no way anymore to figure out what the truth is.
We live in a world of fake news, alternative facts, sexual fluidity, and on and on and on.
I'm a conservative, morally, politically, and fiscally, but conservatives have not had a decent victory since Ronald Reagan. The liberals control the media and they know how to scream. They always win. When they're in power, they win. When they're not in power, they make conservatives cave. And conservatives are not helping their cause by spreading around the rumors, half-truths, and outright lies of the Alex Joneses and the Breitbarts.
The people who get listened to are the ones who scream the loudest. If you're pretty, popular, and have media control, you WILL get listened to. If you dare to challenge the opinion leaders, you are screamed at, mocked, and ridiculed. If you talk back, they talk louder. They ALWAYS get in the last word.
I'm a Christian who's supposed to read the Bible to find out what I believe. But the Bible is too often used as a weapon to club people. I have to rely on an English translation which may or may not be accurate because I can't read Hebrew, Aramaic or Attic Greek, which are the original Biblical languages.
And if I just sit down and read the Bible?
"Well, you have to consider the context/consider the original language/consider who it was written to/consider the culture." I'm to the point where the idea of doing such study is more daunting than anything else.
Everyone has a verse.
Everyone believes they are right and can prove it.
And while God does not lie, men can and do use His name to lie.
I've also been told to "ignore what the Bible says and just look at the words of Jesus." Unfortunately, that's often code for, "Jesus didn't say anything about . . . so he must have been okay with it." (Jesus never said anything about rape, pedophilia, or incest; was he okay with those behaviors?)
I often feel like the Boy Rangers in Mr. Smith Goes To Washington, who were attacked and brutalized when they tried to buck the system that was controlled by a political machine.
Vote? Why vote? Nothing changes?
Run away? There's no place to run to.
Get a Bible study book? Sounds good, but I often wonder if the Bible teachers out there are really interested in giving you Bible study tools or if they're just trying to guide you towards a predetermined conclusion. How do I know who does/does not have a hidden agenda?
I spouted off at my poor BFF earlier today. She's fortunately a very understanding person.
If the current President is impeached and removed from office, there will then be a movement to impeach the next President and remove him from office.
It no longer matters if the candidate is a good candidate. It's more important that the candidate be a part of a particular ethnic/gender group.
I was told I had to vote for Trump because, the Supreme Court. I was also told that, "he's a Cyrus/he's an outside/he'll 'Make America Great Again'". Because people were so terrified of a Clinton presidency, they chose to put the White House in the hands of an incompetent President and his equally incompetent staff. Not that Hillary would have been much better. That's why I wrote in Snoopy. In the past, I would have held my nose and voted for the less evil candidate. This time, I just couldn't do it.
I'm an active member of a church, I participate in a Bible study, I sing on a praise team, I take my son to activities . . . and here I am, saying that I don't know what I believe. I've been stuck on the question of "who's right when everyone can 'prove' they are right?" for over two decades, and I still have not figured out the answers.
I'm afraid of getting it wrong and going to hell. There. I've said it. I am afraid of going before God on Judgment Day and only then finding out that I was wrong on some supposedly important "salvation issue", and by then, it'll be too late to do anything about it.
There was a time as a child that I thought I had things right as far as the Bible was concerned. Then I got involved with a group that said, no, we are the only ones who have the truth.
I ended up leaving that group and getting involved with a group that went to the other extreme--as long as you believe in God and believe in Jesus, it doesn't matter what else you believe.
And while the place I'm at now isn't as extreme as either of the previous places . . . I'm still dealing with the issues that I was left with when I left both groups.
If you're left with the impression that I am angry and frustrated . . . well, you're right.
I'm very angry.
And I'm very frustrated.
And I have no idea what I believe.
Just my .04, adjusted for inflation.